No sleep means a calmer clearer day!!!!!

Yep that is right, last night was one of those nights where I couldn't sleep but after much almost meditation, I feel like maybe i am on a clearer path today than I was yesterday and i feel such gratitude for my family and friends.  Of course the nausea will set in shortly so i hope my artistic abilities are hindered too much by a rough day.  I've got anna beading a bracelet I need to work on a doily for my mother in law and then I decided my crochet is the skill I will use rather than tatting.  I read my muse's blog every morning, her work is not my style or anything I would wear but she takes her love of something I love and is able to have a home homeschool her children and runs a successful business as an artist.  Hmmm sounds like someone i can look up to.  So that said I looked into what my passions are bags purses, hmmmm  crochet bags and purses can be done.  And I am pondering the idea of plarn over yarn, I love the green meets vogue but I'm not there yet it will come.

every monday is a a new slate

I am blessed I would say to live an  awkward abnormal norm in this world.  My daughter goes with her biological father every weekend.  Every Friday, I try to make a little special because Saturday morning Anna goes with Terry her bio dad.  I have the weekend to sleep in and ponder the week I just spent as a mother, pondering a lack of patience here or an extra time spent teaching and explaining there.  And then Monday rolls around, i have my progress report in check and i am ready to spend a little more time doing the arts and crafts she loves, or teaching her something new, a new day.  what a blessing.

imbalance detected and corrected

So turns out I have anemia on top of the hyperemisis gravidium that explains the extreme exhaustion.  I have procured the proper medication and in a few days perhaps i will have more energy.  I have been tatting if small pieces each day and today I will add a new needle threader to my tatting treasures.  Right now I have to sit still and quiet in an attempt to keep down food drink and a plethora of medications.  I will be reminding myself to have an attitude of gratitude and to go after what i want as if i have it already.  Well i guess that is all for now, time to put intent into action.

temperance

i am striving for perfect balance and moderation, to create the perfect role in my perfect world.  I am married i have a three year old, i am 12 weeks away from a second, I work part time as a cna, and i love to tat.  I am on a mission to mix fire and water, obstacles and opportunities.  i see clearly what i want and i think i even know how to achieve this balance and harmony in life, to create a life i can look back on and appreciate to the fullest.  Now i sit up and let this journey continue as it has begun far before now thirty years ago in fact!!!!!!!